A 'Dream' Come True!

An Amazing Group of Friends and Family

Our Amazing Daughter, Katy

Our Banner Proudly Waving!

Gene's Special Interview

Oliver hitching a ride with Grandpa

Just enjoying the scenery

Here we come!

So Many Great Friends!

"Faster Oliver, we are almost there!"

"What's everyone looking at?"

Oliver chill'in with the team!

"What's for lunch?"

Thank you to everyone that made GENE'S DREAM TEAM a ‘Dream’ come true! Sunday, October 19th was a beautiful day at the De Anza Cove in San Diego! It was a beautiful day because 51 of our family and friends came to support Gene and participate with us in the 7th annual Walk to Defeat ALS. There were many others that were not able to be there, but also showed their support with kind well wishes and their generous donations on behalf of Gene's Dream Team; we thank them as well! I don't know what the final dollar figure for our team is, but it cannot compare to the great reward of knowing that we are loved and cared for by such wonderful people. Words of gratitude are insufficient to say thank you to everyone that participated!

How wonderful it was to spend time together with good friends and our dear family and to see those friends and family that we do not get to see on a regular basis. We are especially thankful to our wonderful kids who helped us with all the little details and practicalities; they have been a great source of encouragement to us every step of the way. Even our 15 month old grandson Oliver got into the act! He enjoyed riding with grandpa on his wheelchair and afterward sitting on any empty beach chair that he could find!

Gene was also unexpectedly interviewed by CBS affiliate KFMB TV News 8. Unfortunately, we did not see it aired, but we have heard that it was on the 6:30 PM broadcast. We are working on receiving a copy of it and if there is anyway that we can put a link to it, we will do so. I was so proud of Gene as he spoke quite eloquently words from his heart about the disease of ALS, his friends and family that were there, his sense of being part of something much bigger than himself, and his gratefulness to his Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

All together, there were about 2000 people that participated in yesterday’s Walk to Defeat ALS. During the walk it was such an encouragement to see all the various walk teams supporting their own friends and family that are afflicted with ALS. Many people with ALS were able to participate with their teams using their wheelchairs, scooters and walkers; it was sad and encouraging at the same time to see others in various stages of the disease. There were, also, those that were walking in memory of a loved one that had ALS and have since died.

It is hard to imagine that only 9 months ago ALS was not something we ever gave thought to, because we did not know anything about it; now it has changed our whole world. ALS has brought out the best and the worst in us; that is something we would like to share about with you next time. Not only that, ALS has given us the opportunity to be reminded how very important it is to be connected to a community of family and friends, sharing our lives together and caring for one another.

If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!

Ecclesiastes 4:10

With loving gratitude,

Gene and Michele

THE POWER OF GOD AND THE PURPOSE OF PAIN

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men, yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

Ecclesiastes 3:11

It’s a very demoralizing position to find yourself in when you are no longer able to take care of yourself. Not being able to do the simplest of tasks is very frustrating, and it is very humbling having to rely on others for everything you need. At this stage in Gene’s disease, we are sensing the cruel power of ALS. His mobility is extremely limited and getting worse day by day. We just completed a renovation to our shower to make it handicap accessible; it actually turned out quite beautiful. We are using a special chair that rolls into the shower, and I am bathing, drying, and dressing Gene. What a hilarious sight it is sometimes—it isn’t easy for a small woman to physically care for a much bigger man. Gene says I scrub him so hard that I am not only removing this year’s tan, but last years too! We have, also, just bought an extra-long twin Tempur-Pedic adjustable bed for Gene. The foot and head of his bed can be raised and lowered with a touch of a button, and it even has a vibrating massage feature; however, getting him into and out of bed is a major production. You should see us trying to position him just right on the mattress—if it wasn't so sad, it would be funny, and sometimes we do laugh and cry at the same time. He is positioned right beside our king size bed so that I can be near him when he needs something in the middle of the night, but we miss sleeping together in the same bed. We have gotten a brand new electric lift that will help me to be able to transfer Gene from bed to wheelchair when he is unable to assist me with transfers, or if he falls again. Our room is looking more and more like a hospital room than a romantic master bedroom. We are thankful, though, for the tools and equipment that are helping us accomplish the tasks of daily life. But, this is only our little corner of suffering, we know that you have your own, too; everyone does.

Suffering is universal. Suffering happens to young and old, rich or poor, atheist and God-fearing alike. Suffering is no respecter of persons, power, privilege, or position—it will visit everyone at some point, no matter who you are. No one needs to be convinced that there is a great deal of pain and horrible suffering in this world. If God is supposed to be a God of love, why would He allow people to experience so much pain and suffering? Why does He allow famines, floods, fires, earthquakes, and horrific accidents? Why would He allow us to suffer terrible diseases? If God is so powerful, why does he not just eliminate suffering all together? Does He lack the power or the compassion to overcome pain, suffering, and all the evils of this life? These are not new questions and there are no simple or easy answers.

Throughout time and history philosophers, theologians, and other great minds have sought to give their explanations. Gene and I are certainly no experts in the fields of philosophy or theology and we don’t pretend to be great thinkers. The only thing that qualifies us to speak on this subject is that we have suffered somewhat in our lives and we have looked to God’s Word for answers. We understand that there are many of you that read our blog who may not embrace what we believe, but we welcome you here anyway. We, also, know that some of you are experiencing very painful times in your lives. We are very aware that you hurt, and we would very much like to share with you what has allowed us to keep going and not just to keep going, but to have joy in our hearts despite the suffering that ALS is causing us.

Losing a precious son in a terrible accident 10 years ago has been a training ground for our suffering. We never imagined that we would ever be faced with anything more painful than the death of a child, but here we are! Our deepest desire is that we might offer to you a door of hope and maybe give you something of eternal significance that will make a difference in your life.

When suffering comes to us, it is very easy for us to believe that God does not love us, or that He does not care about us. It is normal to wonder if He is even able to prevent our suffering; is He really in control. But, the truth is, if God were not able to prevent the suffering that has befallen us, then He would not be a God who is very powerful, He would not be a God that is trustworthy. Whatever suffering that has happened to us, would have been more powerful than God himself.

But, God is in control over His creation and He is completely trustworthy. He is in control of our lives, right down to the smallest of details; right down to you and your life, to your pain and your suffering. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Matthew 10:29-30. This truth gives Gene and me a great deal of comfort and hope. If our pain and suffering have no purpose, then our existence in this life is pointless. But He does see us, He knows us, and He is caring for us.

So then, why suffering? Why did God choose suffering to fulfill His plan? The Bible is a thick book, and it gives many reasons and purposes why God allows suffering, pain and calamities. In our search to find God’s answer to this question, we believe that there is one explanation that stands forth as the most important reason and that is, that we would learn to place our hope, not in this temporary life, but in the great value and worth of Jesus Christ.

There are matters of eternal significance that God desires to reveal to us, but often we are too busy being busy with our own lives that we do not hear Him. In his book, “The Problem of Pain”, C.S. Lewis said that "God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world." We love this life; we love our comforts, our toys, our hobbies, our jobs, our routines, our own stuff, our own self. But, this life is but a brief moment; we are like the grass that withers in the heat of the day and then we are gone. A little disease like ALS will remind you that this is true. We, sometimes, act like this life is all there is; that we will be here forever. There are some things that are much too important to be whispered and God must use a trumpet blast to get our attention. He wants for us to lighten our grip on this life that is only a momentary existence, and to value Him as our highest treasure. He wants us to understand that His loving-kindness is better than life itself.

Even the apostle Paul experienced the shout of God in 1 Corinthians 1:8-9 when Paul said, “We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.”

God’s value of suffering is much different than ours. For the display of His own great glory, God the Father did not even spare the suffering of His own Son so that we might know His love and salvation that far outweighs any momentary discomfort we experience in this life—What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will He not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things? Romans 8:31-32

If and when you experience great and painful suffering, Gene and I would like to be a voice that says to you, “God is for you and not against you. He has designed your suffering, because He loves you, to help you release your grip on the temporary hopes of this life so that you might, instead, rejoice in the hope of the glory of God, through Jesus Christ”.

Until next time…

…we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character, and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us.

Romans 5:1-5

To the praise of His glorious grace,

Gene and Michele

HURRICANES, RUNAWAY TRAINS, AND LIFE

..."Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey Him." Luke 8:25

Today is Sunday and we are thankful to have a restful day that we can go to church and now, just sit and be together as a family. This has been a rather challenging week for us. In this last week alone, we have seen 2 neurologists, a rehabilitation specialist, a speech pathologist, a physical/occupational therapist, a respiratory therapist twice, a nutritionist, a pulmonologist, a case manager, a wheelchair specialist, 2 lawyers, we have spent hours on the phone trying to unravel an insurance issue, and have had to deal with car problems. We have felt stretched, overwhelmed, tired, frustrated, perplexed, pressed down, and weak.

We are not the only ones that have had a difficult week. These past several days have been hard for a lot of people. We, as a nation, commemorated the 7th year since 9/11; parts of our country experienced a severe weather storm, known as Hurricane Ike; and on Friday, a devastating train wreck in Los Angeles claimed 25 lives, injuring many others and changed the lives of all those that traveled on the Metrolink that day. Perhaps you know someone that has been affected by one of these tragic events; maybe they have affected you.

Surely, there are untold numbers of personal events that have challenged all of you this week, as well. Life, itself, is a hard journey for most of us—sometimes it feels a bit like a hurricane or a runaway train. The storms of our lives often gather strength and increase in size; they seem to wreck havoc, as they form their destructive path. This is what ALS feels like; it picks up speed and size, and grows until it is a category 5 hurricane. ALS destroys your body, but it doesn’t have to destroy your soul.

Thankfully, the loss of life caused by Hurricane Ike’s fury will certainly be much less than it might have been because most in her path heeded the warnings to move to safer surroundings. Sadly, there are those that chose to stay with their homes and paid the price with their lives. Jesus tells us of a similar storm: “Everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against the house, and it fell with a great crash.” Matthew 7:24-27

As destructive as Hurricane Ike was, those that listened to the warnings were able to get to safe shelter while the weather was still calm. The Metrolink crash was another matter. I suspect that those boarding the train that day could not have imagined what was about to happen to them; there was no time for them to prepare.

ALS is not the first hurricane that we have experienced in our lives, but it seems to have the potential to be the largest and the most destructive so far. Gene fell this morning; fortunately our son was here and could pick him up, because I could not. Gene is, also, having a hard time dressing himself, and he needs my help getting comfortable in bed. But, the most serious challenge this week has been Gene’s struggle to catch his breath; his diaphragm and chest muscles are weakening. He is now using a BiPap ventilator machine at night; tomorrow we will receive a machine called a “sip and puff” ventilator; it will assist him in the daytime when he is short of breath, and another machine called a “cough assist” because Gene has lost the ability to cough; making cold and flu season dangerous for him. We have his special wheelchair ordered; hopefully it will be here within 2 weeks.

Fortunately, God has used our previous storms to prepare us for this current one. We have built the foundation of our lives upon the strong Rock of Christ Jesus, and He has given us the ability to endure this very strong storm. We do not mean that any of this is easy and even though we are “hard pressed on every side, [we are] not crushed; perplexed, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed” (1 Corinthians 4:8) we know that God reigns, that He is all good, that He is trustworthy, that He is all wise, and that He is all loving.

About this time some may ask, “Why would a God who is supposed to be all loving allow deadly hurricanes, train wrecks, and dreadful diseases such as ALS anyway?” That is a hard question and one we have all asked. We would like to share our thoughts with you on this subject next time.

As we close today, we would like to encourage you to be part of "Gene's Dream Team". You can sign up by clicking on this link: http://web.alsa.org/goto/genemccain

Let us leave you with this thought...

Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth.

Proverbs 27:1

Trusting the One that holds our tomorrows,

Gene and Michele

GENE'S DREAM TEAM...

GENE'S DREAM TEAM

Hi Everyone,

We would like to thank all of you that have taken time to show your love and encouragement to us, as we walk this journey with ALS. We are incredibly blessed to have so many people that care about us. Knowing that you care makes such a difference. Thank you, too, for reading our blog and sharing it with your friends and family. We have been overwhelmed by your response and show of love. Many of you have asked how you might be able to help us; that is the purpose of today’s post.

We would like to ask for your help in the fight against ALS! The Walk to Defeat ALS is The ALS Association’s national signature event. Each year, more than 100,000 people across the country, including ALS patients, their families, friends, and corporate sponsors join to increase awareness of the disease and to raise funds in support of The ALS Association so they can continue to provide their wonderful community-based patient services and to fund their cutting-edge research programs. Last year, 2,000 individuals participated in the Greater San Diego Chapter Walk and raised over $300,000, making it their most successful year yet.

In the few months since Gene’s diagnosis we have received valuable help and support from the San Diego ALS Association. Now, we would like to invite all of you to join us for this year’s Walk to Defeat ALS! We are forming our own walk team; Gene will be our team captain and will participate in his power wheelchair, and we want you to be part of our team. Save the date:

Sunday, October 19, 2008
De Anza Cove, at Mission Bay
Registration is @ 7:30 a.m.
Start time is @ 9 a.m.

Anyone can participate with us in the fight against ALS. The walk route is 3 miles and is completely handicap accessible. The walk day includes activities for all ages and is a fun time to gather together. We would love to have all of you!

We are calling our team GENE’S DREAM TEAM. You can register to be part of our team and walk with us and/or sponsor us by going to Gene’s walk page; just click this link: http://web.alsa.org/goto/genemccain. We hope you will register today and join with us in the fight against ALS!

God bless you,
Captain Gene and Michele

Jerry Lewis MDA TELETHON

Hi Everyone,

Like many of you, when we were kids we spent the last weekend of summer vacation swimming, eating barbeque chicken, watermelon, homemade ice cream and watching the Jerry Lewis MDA Telethon. Since 1966, comedian and entertainer Jerry Lewis has brought worldwide attention to a group of diseases called the “Muscular Dystrophies” with the 21 ½ hour telethon he hosts. At the present time, there are 43 recognized “muscular dystrophy” diseases. ALS is one of these diseases. We didn’t know this until a little over 2 months ago. To be honest, I have only watched brief snippets of the telethon over the years. Being somewhat cynical, I always regarded the telethon as a ploy that used cute handicapped children to gain sympathy and to tug at the heart strings of hard working people until they were willing to give of their hard earned money—it worked, and I am thankful. We, and many other families, are benefiting from this media “ploy” that has prompted many wonderful, hard working folks to give generously.

Last year’s MDA Telethon raised $63.8 million in donations. Over half of this money was allocated toward research; $18 million of it was given toward ALS research. There are about 225 university-affiliated MDA clinics in the United States and 38 MDA/ALS clinics. Every person that has a neuromuscular disease and is registered with the MDA is eligible to benefit directly from the money raised during the telethon. As a result, all muscular dystrophy patients may receive a free flu vaccine, assistance with the purchase and repair of expensive medical equipment, support groups and educational literature. MDA also has nearly 90 summer camps across the United States where children that suffer from various muscular dystrophies can experience an unforgettable week of fun just being a kid, at no cost for their parents! As we are finding out, these neuromuscular diseases are very expensive to deal with and many families could not make it without the help of the MDA.

Gene and I will be watching the MDA Telethon, beginning August 31 at 7pm. In San Diego, it will be on the KUSI television station. With hearts that have been tugged at, we will be picking up our phone to make a donation for “Jerry’s Kids”. We will also be thankful for every dollar that is earned, knowing from experience, it will be put to use to help alleviate the suffering of many.

With love,

Gene and Michele

HANDICAP ACCESSIBLE...

Every 90 minutes an American is diagnosed with ALS. Most individuals that develop ALS have been healthy and physically active all of their lives. The onset of the disease usually begins in the limbs, called limb onset ALS; 25% of cases begin in the mouth, called bulbar onset ALS. For all of its victims, ALS will eventually lead to paralysis of all the voluntary muscles of the body, but the rate of progression varies with each person.

When you’ve been healthy and physically active all your life, it usually doesn’t occur to you that you could ever become “handicapped” or “disabled”; Gene is now both. When you have been physically fit and active all your life, you never think about having to depend on others to take care of your needs. When you have been physically able all of your life, you don’t worry that hallways and doorways will be wide enough to accommodate a wheelchair, or pay attention to see if a building or a place you would like to go to is handicap accessible; we do now.

As one who is physically able, I’m ashamed to say that I never thought twice about leaving my shopping cart in the blue path, called an access isle, along side the handicap parking stall. I now know that the blue asphalt directly beside a handicap parking space is not there to make it convenient for me to leave my cart when I am finished with it, but it is there for the purpose of a ramp that extends out of a van allowing a person in a wheelchair to slide out onto the pavement. If that area is blocked, the person in the wheelchair has no room to exit from their van. Even with a big “no parking” stamped on it, I see people leaving their shopping carts in the “blue” instead of returning the cart to the store or to a designated shopping cart return. I don’t think people are trying to be inconsiderate, but rather are acting out of ignorance. I was such a person, not anymore.

Lately, we have been getting an education in the ways and challenges of the handicapped. We have met with the wheelchair specialist to learn about the very specialized, high tech features that Gene will need in a wheelchair; we have had much to learn. This is not your ordinary push wheelchair. Gene will be meeting with the physical therapist, the wheelchair specialist, and the ALS specialist to do a wheelchair assessment. This will be an intense appointment where his needs will be determined and they will measure Gene for a custom fitted power wheelchair called a Permobil. It is becoming clear that the Permobil is going to be a necessity very soon. We are almost looking forward to it! We have, also, been shopping for a “ramp van” so that we can maintain as much freedom and independence as possible. We will be thankful for the blue access isle when we start using the power wheelchair.

There are many obstacles to face when you are handicapped, fortunately many of them can be overcome. We appreciate all the technology that helps Gene and others continue living as normal as possible for as long as possible. We are, also, grateful to live in a country that has made getting out into the community possible for those that are disabled. Many have worked hard so that disabled persons can have easier access to public places. We are the beneficiaries of all those that have been advocates for the handicapped and disabled.

We have also benefited from all that Jesus has accomplished on our behalf. All of us have handicaps and disabilities; some are just more visible than others. Our greatest disability is the disease called “sin”. Sin has separated us from our heavenly Father, but Jesus has made access to God possible for anyone that desires it, regardless of who they are or what they have or haven't done. Jesus’ favorite people to hang out with are those that are willing to admit they are handicapped. In fact, Jesus was criticized for hanging out with those that were the “handicapped” of society—tax collectors, prostitutes, criminals, the sick, the blind, the paralyzed and crippled, etc. He said to His critics, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” Mark 2:17

Jesus is also our advocate. An advocate is “one that speaks on behalf of another. It is implied that the represented lacks the skill, ability, or standing to speak for themselves.” "Even now my witness is in heaven; my advocate is on high. My intercessor is my friend as my eyes pour out tears to God; on behalf of a man He pleads with God, as a man pleads for his friend." Job 16: 19-20 When we lay our pride aside and acknowledge that we cannot speak for ourselves because sin has separated us from our true Father in heaven, Jesus stands up and speaks on our behalf. He tells the Father that you have been given full access to all that is His. You have now been granted complete access to all of God’s riches through faith in Jesus Christ, who has become your blue "access isle”.

We will be back very soon, in the meantime these closing words say it much better than we could...

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character, and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us. You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.

Romans 5:1-6

We are "rejoicing in the hope",

Gene and Michele

LOST AND FOUND

...I have made you and I will carry you;

I will sustain you and I will rescue you. Job 46:4

The losses were subtle at first, hardly worth mentioning; a slight loss of strength and endurance, nothing major. But over a course of several months, the losses began making their unwelcome presence known. Gene has now lost the ability to go for walks, swim, ride his bike, go hiking, go to the gym, or just walk normally down the hall of our home or step outside to get the newspaper or mail. He is experiencing the loss of freedom and his independence to physically do normal life activities. Simple activities that most of us do easily and take for granted are being lost; once a muscle group has lost its strength it is gone forever. ALS is a devastating disease of losses. Gene is not the only one experiencing loss; everyone that knows and loves him is experiencing the loss of the active Gene that they have always known, enjoyed, and relied upon; you could always count on Gene. The real Gene, his wonderful personality and corny sense of humor are still intact!

For all of us, if we live long enough, life will be filled with a series of losses. Some of our losses will be small, others massive. Some of our losses might be positive experiences; other losses, devastating. Perhaps you have experienced the devastating loss of loved ones, friends, jobs, finances, health, independence, opportunities, and physical and mental abilities; the list of possibilities is endless. As we get older, the rate of our losses accelerates with a sort of piling up of many losses linked together. Usually when we have lost something dear to us it brings sadness, and grief; it is something we would like to avoid, but loss is a part of normal life.

Sometimes when we suffer loss it can feel as though God has forgotten us, or He is punishing us, or doesn’t care about us. Maybe we feel He has turned His back on us. We might feel as though God is taking pleasure in causing the pain and the loss that we are experiencing. Worse yet, we can feel as though He does not love us.

When I saw the above picture, I knew that I had to build today’s post around it. Unless you look very closely you may miss the fact that it is really a picture of 2 homeless men, one cradling the other. This is how Gene and I feel, like the sick, dirty, tired, needy beggar man being held by his friend. This has been a rough week for us. But, even during our lowest moments, when we have felt the most desperate, God has been willing to enter into our suffering with us and to wrap His arms around our weakness and our affliction and carry us. This is what Jesus did for all of us when he came to this world. He left the glories of heaven to become like one of us, though He was still God. He was willing to suffer and die for a sin ravaged world in order that we might know the hope of salvation. Jesus did not come to this world unapproachable or as a God unwilling to touch our afflictions. He came willing to suffer for us and He will sit right down in the dirt of our suffering with us and wrap His strong arms around us. He knows what it is to suffer. Jesus was a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Isaiah 53:3

It is quite easy to be consumed by the pain of our losses. Gene and I are not superhuman that we have not felt pain, grief, and sadness in the midst of ALS; we have and we do, and we will, still. But God has a way in suffering. Many of us come to find Christ in a time of loss and suffering; and when we know Him, it is often in times of suffering, loss, and affliction that we find Him to be unusually present. This is our experience; this is what we have found to be true. And if I may speak to you as a dear friend, God often uses the time of suffering to reveal Himself to us even when we are not looking to find Him: “I revealed myself to those who did not ask for me; I was found by those who did not seek me.” Isaiah 65:1 We are all the beggar, homeless man in the picture and God would come and weep over each of us, put His arms around us, and carry us.

The loss that has caused Gene the greatest sadness is his inability to kneel in prayer. One of my dearest thoughts of Gene is his early morning prayer time—in our closet, on his knees, before his Lord. Mentally, he knows that kneeling is a condition of the heart and not the physical act so much, but now that it is lost, he thinks of all the years that he chose not to kneel because of pride and self-sufficiency.

Yes there has been much lost, but there is much still to be found. To you who have experienced the pain of losses and suffering, there is much about suffering that remains a mystery to us; but let us leave you with these words…

But those who suffer He delivers in their suffering; He speaks to them in their affliction. He is wooing you from the jaws of distress to a spacious place free from restriction, to the comfort of your table laden with choice food.

Job 36:15-16

We will be back soon, until then we are...

Being carried,

Gene and Michele